Soul fragments

 What is a soul? 

Originally when i think of a soul i think of some spiritual invisible part of me that makes me individual. 

The expression “they put their heart and soul into that” what does that mean?  I suppose that someone has put their love and individuality into something. Their passion, their purpose, their true unfiltered spirit into something. 

When i started my journey exploring the realms of spirituality some years ago, i started to question life, its journey, our purpose and death. In the spiritual community i started to hear “soul contract” and “akashic record” 

The Akashic Records are often referred to as a "cosmic library" containing every soul’s experiences, actions, and knowledge from all lifetimes. The idea is that these records contain the history of the soul, and it is through accessing them that one can gain insight into past lives and soul contracts.

The soul contract idea in modern New Age philosophy is an extension of this belief, where individuals agree to come into this lifetime with specific lessons, relationships, and experiences designed to help them grow and evolve.

I’ve started to explore this idea that souls arnt a singular entity but rather we hold a piece of our soul within us and the rest of our soul is in fragments,  scattered. I’ll explain these concepts. 

Before you are born, before you even take your first breath, your soul stands at the threshold of time — ready to enter this new life, ready to embark on a journey of growth, healing, and evolution. In the animal kingdom the evolutions are physical but ours are emotional, soul level. before you step into your new body, you, as your higher self, make a soul contract — a set of agreements, a blueprint of sorts, for the challenges and experiences you will face in this life.

These contracts are not written on paper, but exist as energy — agreements between you and other souls, agreements you make with yourself and the universe, determining the lessons you wish to learn and the ways you want to evolve. The souls that are part of your life  and include your family, friends, mentors, even your “enemies” — all come into your life through these contracts. They are not random. They are not accidental. They are part of your specifically picked, arranged and predetermined by you for your soul’s evolution.

Let’s take the story of Ari, a soul standing before the cosmic plane, preparing for their journey. Ari knows that they have a deep desire to heal and to learn about self-worth. They have carried wounds from previous lifetimes where they gave too much of themselves to others and were never truly seen. In this new life, they want to learn to claim their own power, to be seen and valued for who they truly are, rather than what others expect them to be.

Before entering the physical realm, Ari sits in a sacred council of light — a space outside of time — where they meet with their higher self, their spirit guides, and the souls they will meet in this lifetime. In this space, Ari looks over their soul contract, deciding what lessons they want to experience and who they want to experience them with.

The Agreements:

1. The Family Contract

   Ari agrees to be born into a family where love is abundant but boundaries are unclear. This will teach Ari about the importance of self-love and self-care and help them learn to set healthy boundaries. They will face struggles with over-giving, people-pleasing, and seeking external validation. But, in the end, this contract will push Ari to learn that they are worthy of love and care, independent of others’ opinions and value of them.

2. The Friendship Contract

   Ari’s childhood friend, Ella agrees to come into their life. Ella has a soul contract with Ari to help them heal from past-life wounds of *abandonment. In one of their past lives, Ari and Ella were siblings, but in that life, Ari was abandoned and left to fend for themselves. In this life, Ella agrees to play the role of a friend who at times seems to pull away, making Ari feel abandoned again. This triggers Ari’s core wound, but also presents an opportunity for self-reliance and understanding that true love and companionship come from within.

3. The Romantic Partner Contract

   Ari agrees to meet Max, a soul they’ve known in many lifetimes. Max will help Ari explore their fears about commitment and vulnerability In a past life, Ari and Max had an unfinished relationship, where one of them died too early, leaving the other in grief. This life is about reconciliation — Ari and Max will struggle with trust, but through this struggle, they will find a deep, mutual healing. Max is not just a partner; he is a key piece in Ari’s healing process.

4. The Work Contract

   In the professional realm, Ari’s contract involves experiencing self-doubt and imposter syndrome in their career. They agreed to experience moments of feeling “not good enough” so that they would eventually discover their true valueand learn to stand firmly in their gifts. This part of the contract will help them step into their power, finding success and fulfillment, but only after having gone through the fire of self-doubt.

Early deaths, such as those of babies young children, might be part of a pre-incarnational agreement. The soul may have chosen to experience a brief life to teach specific lessons, whether it's about love, impermanence, or acceptance. The parents, family, and community involved may also have a soul contract that involves specific lessons, such as grief, letting go, or spiritual awakening. 

This can be incredibly difficult for those left behind, but from the perspective of the soul's journey, it is believed that these early deaths have a deep, transcendent purpose — even if that purpose is not immediately understood by the people involved

each challenge you face, is part of the plan to help you integrate “fragments” of your soul. 

Our souls are not singular, fixed entities. We are fragments of a greater cosmic whole, pieces of an infinite puzzle scattered across time, space, and multiple lifetimes. These soul fragments live in us, and through us, as we journey through the ages. We are not one single, linear expression of energy we are many. A soul of many fragments is stardust, atoms, energy that is constantly evolving, shifting, and rearranging itself to bring together the pieces of you that may have been scattered in past lives, or even in your current life experiences. If youve ever felt like youre not a person of this planet, this may explain why. There may be or may have been a part of your soul existing in another dimension or planet. 

Going back to Ari. Ari’s relationship with Ella and Max are both pieces of Ari’s soul fragmentation. In past lives, Ari may have made choices that left them feeling abandoned, misunderstood, or incomplete. Each of these people — Ella, Max, and others are all part of the same fragmented soul Through the soul contract. It is through those wounds Ari brings those fragments back together. 

As Ari experiences these soul contracts, they begin to remember who they truly are — a being of love, light, and infinite potential. 

Before fragmentation, the soul is a singular energy or consciousness, but it chooses to experience life in many different forms, leading to individual expressions or fragments that later return to the source, enriched by their experiences. The contract is seen as an opportunity for the soul to grow and heal by experiencing different aspects of life.

soul may have originally been whole or undivided, but as part of the spiritual evolution and desire for experience, the soul fragmented into parts, into individuals, atoms, energy. This fragmentation could be understood as a natural process of soul growth: breaking into different parts or aspects of consciousness to experience a range of lessons, emotional depths, and challenges.

The people and events in one persons life serve as mirrors, showing them where they need to heal, grow, and integrate parts of themselves that were lost or fragmented so that these parts can again become whole and return to its original “source” which is sometimes described as “source energy” , unified consciousness, the Divine, or an infinite state of being. Reaching this point is known as reaching enlightenment but at the same it’s also remembering where we came from and enlightenment is also a state of an all knowing “remembering”.

I think there's something deeply instinctual and universal about the idea of souls being fragments of a greater source, and this idea resonates with many cultures, religions, and stories throughout human history. It feels like a collective memory — something encoded in our collective unconscious — that transcends specific cultural or religious boundaries. This idea is so pervasive because, on some level, we remember the truth of our existence: that we were once whole and that we are all connected, even if that connection is buried, living in the matrix. 

Creativity is one of the most powerful and natural ways for the soul to reconnect with its fragmented pieces. When we create, we step into a state that goes beyond the rational mind and taps into deeper layers of the subconscious, unconscious, and even the collective unconscious. This process brings us face-to-face with the fragments of ourselves that may have been lost, buried, or forgotten. It’s as if creation is a portal through which we can remember and reclaim the parts of us that we have scattered across time, experiences, and lifetimes.

When I think about creativity and creation (birth), I realize how intertwined they are, especially in the way they engage the sacral chakra. The sacral chakra is the center of creativity, creation, and emotional expression—everything that channels my soul’s energy. When I paint, I feel like I’m tapping into something deeper, expressing pieces of my soul that need healing. Painting becomes my way of gradually exploring the fragments of myself, my history, and my emotions. It’s a slow process, a quiet conversation with myself, unfolding layer by layer.

But then there’s birth. Giving birth, for me, amplified the energy of creation in a way I never could have imagined. It was a burst, a sudden, overwhelming awakening that hit me like a lightning bolt. The energy required to bring life into the world was so intense, so immediate, that I had no time to process it. Everything, all at once—everything I’d suppressed, everything I hadn’t even realized was still inside me—came rushing forward in an instant. The force of creation in that moment was so massive, so overwhelming, that it couldn’t be controlled or gently unraveled the way it can be through art. There was no slowing it down. Instead, it demanded my full attention and pushed me into a new version of myself. Whether I was ready for it or not, that act of creation shaped me in ways I couldn’t have anticipated.

In The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams brilliantly satirises the human search for meaning. The characters in the book create a supercomputer —Deep Thought— to calculate the Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything. After 7.5 million years, Deep Thought reveals the answer:

"42"

This isn’t an answer they liked and deep thought states that if they want a better answer they must ask a better question.

But… no one knows what the actual **question** is.

This cosmic joke mirrors our own search for meaning. We’re all out here trying to piece together the puzzle of existence, searching for answers that sometimes seem utterly incomprehensible. In the grand scheme of things, perhaps the **answer** is not an ultimate, definitive response to life’s mysteries, but a realization that the questions we ask — the inquiry — is where the magic lies.

We spend our lives seeking answers to our fragmented experiences, unaware that sometimes the question we need to ask is: *How do I integrate all of this?* How do I reconcile the fragmented parts of myself that I’ve scattered through time and life? How do I reclaim what was lost?

The absurdity of 42 reminds us that sometimes, the journey isn’t about finding an answer. It’s about returning to the question — the question that will allow us to see our fragmented selves as whole once again.

So what does it mean to integrate the soul fragments we’ve scattered?

Integration isn’t about fixing what’s broken. It’s about acknowledging all of who we are, embracing every part in of ourselves — the light, the dark, the past, the future. When we talk about soul integration we mean coming back to wholeness.

This involves accepting the fragments of ourselves that we’ve left in past lives, in past relationships, and in past experiences. It’s about finding ways to bring those pieces together — not to make ourselves perfect, but to make ourselves whole.

Integration means accepting that we’ve been pieces of the whole all along. We are not separate from Source; we are Source. And through every soul contract, every karmic connection, and every piece of art or creation we make, we are remembering who we truly are.

Integration means embracing the soul fragments that have been scattered and rediscovering the ways we are interconnected with others, with the universe, and with our past selves.

In creativity, we tap into a **portal** — a space between worlds — where the **subconscious** and **cosmic** energies merge. We express through art, music, writing, or whatever medium we choose, bringing forth the fragments of our soul into the world. Each piece of art, every song, every word written is a **fragment** of our own story, our own healing journey, and our own soul’s quest for integration

Just like in “Stranger Things” where creativity (in the form of music) was the tool that helped battle depression, creativity is the portal through which we transcend. In these moments of creation, we open ourselves to the mysteries of our fragmented souls and begin to piece them back together. (This is better explained in a separate blog post that explains how stranger things is an allegory for mental health)

Creativity is not just an expression — it’s reconnection with all parts of ourselves that have been lost along the way. Through this process, we integrate what was once fragmented and reclaim the parts of us that have been forgotten, lost, or abandoned.

We are all searching for pieces of ourselves in the world around us. When we find those pieces, whether in others, in art, or in the universe, we begin the journey of integrating them into the whole. The journey to wholeness is never linear, but it’s always moving us toward the same goal: to become who we were meant to be — not perfect, but whole.

In this journey of soul fragmentation, soul contracts, and integration, we are not just healing ourselves. We are healing the collective. As we piece ourselves back together, we remember that we are all connected, all part of the same infinite whole.

We are the key, and we are the door. The question, after all, is ours to ask. The answer is already within us, we just need to trust in the us before the conditioning and remember.