Work Of Heart Diaries

Googles top definition: you experience severe emotional pain because of a failure or a feeling of rejection I often wonder if this severe emotional state I sometimes get myself into eases or lessens. I like to believe it will and it does. Like the part of the brain I use now to breathe through and reframe will strengthen like a muscle and more easily compensate for this debilitating ADHD symptom. I'm not entirely sure how it all works but it sounds right doesn't it? And often placebos and beliefs are much more powerful than facts anyway so let's go with that... Now that I'm actually allowing pain to come through and pass rather than suppress it or distract myself it's as if I'm feeling things like I've never felt them before.  Yesterday I experienced RSD and the consequence to this with ADHD is like being in a zombiefied state. Moving around but barely functioning. Looking busy but not getting anything or much done at all.  Wanting to peform basic tasks but...

 "ADHD isn't real, it's just an excuse. It never existed in my day. I do that all the time, I'm just like that and I don't have a problem. You cant blame everything on ADHD or your child hood. " ADHD is considered a mental disability. Firstly, Disability exists in the context of the environment. If you had no arms but it was standard in all restaurants for robots to feed you, for cars to drive themselves, self writing pens etc etc then it wouldn't be disabling and you wouldn't be considered disabled. I can't be bothered listing the symptoms or WHY it's disabling to have ADHD but perhaps if I explain it like this.   There are physiological and chemical differences to a neurodynamic, adhd brain, than someone who is neurotypical (normal) meaning the brain is physically different. There are parts that are smaller.  There is a chemical difference. Meaning that,  that that good feeling hormone called dopamine is lower so we're constantly in searc...