Work Of Heart Diaries

  The last 4 years have been a slow unravelling. They say healing isn’t linear, but I was also corrected once before to call it instead “growing”. As grown adults, we assume that because we are adults, we know better and we do better than children, but as a parent, I can tell you my child has been my most excellent teacher. He is 5, but he calls me out on my shit. He's not always right, but I consider what he’s said. I reflect on it because as much as experience through the years teaches us, it also conditions us and blinds us to the truth. Sometimes, we think we know everything when, in fact, what we have is a belief that doesn’t serve us or our children. Children cause us to question those beliefs when they question our way of being. They know more than us because they have no beliefs at all. They come only from wanting to be valued, seen and heard. They simply wish to love and be loved, and when we are not loving, they let us know about it and guide us towards it if we let the...

    Did you really think you could get away with this? The drudgery, the shame, the conditioning that had us believe so many falsehoods. Your made-up normality upset our entire identity and sense of self so that we couldn’t truly embrace who we were because we were so desperately trying to survive. A choir of screams echo and echo through generations. Do you really think our trauma died with us? The suffering we endured, forgotten as soon as the ashes and dust settled? The gaslighting, the lies, the madness of it all just buried? HA! How naive of you to think you could get away with this. And by you, I mean anyone in any position of power who gives no thought to the ordinary person. We are the women who were cast out from society when we were assaulted, the slaves, the children who died in a workhouse, the family members who had to grieve, the men who died in war and all who died by suicide because the world couldn’t be lived in. the members of society who have been either c...